Why I won't change my Facebook profile picture to Sarah Watkin

In the early hours of Sunday morning, Sarah Watkin, 7 years old, lost her battle with cancer. Her story was chronicled in the local and national papers. Her family set up a Facebook page to help push their agenda of getting people to register with OneMatch.ca. It's really easy. It's four swabs of the insides of your cheeks. They tried to find a match for their daughter, but were unsuccessful. They have, at least, saved four more lives that they know of.

I am heartbroken for their loss. No parent should outlive their child. But the Watkins gave their daughter a lifetime of living in the past few months of this summer.  Sarah got to do things most kids don't even think about. And she got to do things kids dream of. 

But I won't change my profile picture to Sarah's beautiful face. I didn't know Sarah and I don't know her family. I can empathize with them. I can't imagine the pain they are going through having lost their oldest child and first daughter. 

I feel that it's not right for me, someone who has never met the family, to put their daughter's photo as my profile picture. I mourn for them, for their loss, but since the Watkins aren't even a passing acquaintance, I can't justify putting their beautiful daughter's picture as my profile picture.  I will carry her picture in my heart, and I will smile at the pictures my friends have changed their profile pictures to, of Sarah's smiling face  wearing a grey toque with sparkles. But I won't  make the change. Sarah was far too special.  Her memory is far too special. 

NaNoWriMo and NaBloPoMo

Normally I only participate in National Novel Writing Month, but this year I'm going to try my hand at National Blog Posting Month, too. 

Thirty posts in 30 days and 50,000 words in 30 days. Should be interesting 

So... Here goes. 

Yesterday was halloween. One of Banana and Squish's favourite holidays. How can you not love a holiday where you get tons of candy. For free. 

It's interesting to see how my girls' cistes have changed over the years. Gone are the days of princesses.  

Their first year, the girls were only 3 months old.  I certainly wasn't taking them trick or treating and I wasn't buying costumes. But Old Navy was selling the cute little fleece hats. So I bought a ghost hat and a pumpkin too. I had a white sleeper and an orange onesie with green pants. It was an unseasonably warm Halloween that year, so I sat outside with the girls in their stroller and bucket seats in sweat pants and a t-shirt, them in their  "costumes" with no need for a jacket. This year Banana went as a bag of jelly beans, Squish went as Katniss from The Hunger Games. 

Goodness was it cold. And wet. The last three Halloweens were wet and rainy. This year seemed worse for some reason. My pants got soaked and they soaked my Converse shoes. I was walking in puddles. In my shoes. My friend and I, who had been going along with the girls, decided that we would let them continue on their own. At 10 and 11, the rain didn't bother them as much. 

By the time we went to bed, it was SNOWING!!  Honest to goodness SNOWING. Interestingly, it was the first snowfall. The last few years, the snow h came at least once in October. It never stays, because the ground hasn't frozen yet, but it won't be long before we are covered in a white duvet. I just hope we don't have another ice storm. 

Enjoy some pictures from last night 

How I became the "Cool Mom" and still maintained my parental authority.

When I was growing up, I was always determined that if I had kids, I would be the "cool mom". The mom that made kids want to come and hang out at our house. I wanted to be the "fun mom" who let the kids have ice cream for breakfast on birthdays and pancakes for dinner, just because. Of course some of that was in rebellion from my own parents' seemingly strict rules (a friend from elementary school recently confessed to me that my mother terrified her when we were young, because my mother didn't let us get away with anything). You don't appreciate those rules when you're living under them. But when you have young lives in your care, you realize, maybe Mom wasn't wrong about bedtime and lessons and treats and weekend play dates, sleepovers and consequences for poor behaviour.

I often hear parents these days say they want their kids to know they are their parents, not their friends.  In some cases it can be a fine line and not all parents can tow it. 

It is, however, possible to be both your child's parent and their friend. At least, that's the case with my girls. 

Now, when I say I am my childrens' friend, I'm not saying I don't pay any mind to boundaries or rules. My husband and I have rules and boundaries we adhere to and our kids know just how far they can go before mom-friend becomes mom-mom. 

How do you balance a "friendship" with parenting?  Let me put it this way. I say "friendship" for lack of a better term. I am the parent first and foremost.  There is no grey zone about this.  We have our strict "can-never-ever-be-broken" rules and we have our "just-this-once-because-it's fun-to-break" rules. 

The first time I set the "I am your parent" boundary was when my girls were about 3 or 4. One of them asked for something to which I said "no" and the plea became "I'll be your best friend". Right then and there, I knew the boundary had to be set, no question.  I replied with "I am your mother. I am not your friend.  We can always do fun stuff but Daddy and I make the rules and no is no".  There was no further arguing, no whining, no pleading and best of all, no tears. I hadn't scarred my child and made her think parenting is sucky and parents are mean. My girls are 11 now, and I have yet to have "you're so mean!!" thrown at me.  

From an early age, we taught boundaries and consequences.  For example, every other year, we purchase seasons passes to Canada's Wonderland. Depending on timing, weather, activities, etc, we sometimes would go in an evening once the Hubs and I were home from work.  Sometimes we'd grab a pizza and eat it in the parking area (our favourite grassy knoll has been taken over by fenced in area where a ride now comes out into the parking lot).  On one occasion, we went with my brother in law, his two kids, my two, the Hubs and myself. Seven people, two cars.  The girls were still quite young. Kindergarten, I believe, and so we spent most of our time in the Kiddie area. The four kids were in line for a ride and they stopped the line right at Banana. She wanted on the ride, but it was full. Cue meltdown. I tried to explain she would get on the next ride. She was having none of that.  I warned her that if she didn't stop crying, because there was nothing I could do to get her on the ride faster and that she had to wait her turn, that I would take her home. This was usually the cue to quit the tantrum. But nope. She insisted she wanted on the ride NOW and she didn't want to wait her turn.  So, I asked the Hubs for his car keys, told him he's have to get a ride with his brother and took Banana out of the park, screaming and crying the whole way (to this day I am shocked no one stopped me thinking I was kidnapping this screaming child. After all, she was saying "no! I don't want to go!")

By the time we got to the car, Banana was now pleading "I'll stop crying Mommy!  If we go back I'll stop crying."  She'd had her warnings. She'd had her chance. She'd been told the consequence. Now it was time to follow through. Most of the drive out of the parking lot was "I stopped crying. I'll wait my turn. Can we go back?  Please, Mommy. I'll wait."  When she realized we were going home regardless, she stopped her pleading. About halfway home, with me still seething from carrying a wriggling, screaming child through an amusement park, Banana pipes up in her adorable small voice "Mommy? Can I tell you something?"  I responded with "if it's about going back, I don't want to hear it."  She said "no. I just want to tell you I love you and I'm sorry I didn't listen."  I still remember this exchange to this day. As does she. And you know what?  We've never had to leave Wonderland because someone wasn't listening.  We've left because we were cold. We've left because it rained. We left because we had dinner plans. But not once since then have we left because someone misbehaved. 

What does that have to do with being the "cool mom"?  Nothing, I guess, but it's an example of how setting boundaries doesn't mean you're the "mean mom". We've often discussed with our girls that the rules we put in place aren't to be mean, but to protect them. And they get it. And they abide (mostly) by them. 

But that still leaves room for ice cream sandwiches and milkshakes for breakfast because Mommy's away, or a sushi dinner and a late showing of Hotel Transylvania because Daddy's away.  We go to the drive in, and sometimes stay for the third feature on the long weekend, which usually get us home after 2am. Because parenting isn't always about rules and how strict they can be. It's about showing kids it's okay to bend some of the rules. But not all of them and not all the time.  

One of the ways I've achieved the coveted "cool mom" status is by showing an interest in what my kids like. Banana loves playing Minecraft. So I loaded it on my iPad and she has it on hers and occasionally, we play together.  Recently, the two of us were out for dinner while Squish and the Hubs were at the Snow Show volunteering with the Canadian Ski  Patrol.  Banana went on and on and on and on about Minecraft and video games and different things that I've lost all track of. But she was engaged and proud of achievements she knew her father would not only not understand (I admit, she lost me somewhere along the way, too) but would make a disparaging comment because he views video games as a waste of time. What he doesn't realize is it teaches our daughter how to plan and explore.  It makes her focus (she's recently diagnosed ADHD inattentive type) and it helps keep her relaxed.  She told me her friends thought it was cool that I played Minecraft, too.  But by exploring worlds with Banana in Minecraft, she opens up and we talk. Even if it's just about how best to blow up a floating house made of sponge, or guessing how many blocks of TNT it will take, what the Hubs doesn't realize is she's learning estimates and predictions, and she doesn't even realize it. 

With Squish, we share a mutual love of "The Walking Dead".  Sunday night at 9:00 is reserved for us to sit together under her Walking Dead blanket, with a bowl of popcorn and our Walking Dead cups, even though school night bedtime is 9:00. This is one of our bendable rules. Banana plays chess or backgammon with her dad while Squish and I watch people get killed by zombies, or kill zombies.  Squish's friends think it's cool that I let her watch The Walking Dead and that we watch it together. 

By taking these interests in my kids' lives, and sharing mutual interests with them, I became the "cool mom" and their friends feel comfortable coming over. Even their friends know our house has rules and they have to follow them. But if they want to play Minecraft, I'm happy to join in.  Maybe I'll learn a little more about my kids' lives outside my front door.  

Summer 2014, in pictures.

The girls joined the York Region Children's Chorus in January.  This is their final concert in May

Squish placed FIRST in long-jump at her school track meet, qualifying for the Area meet. 

Big smiles, though she didn't place at Areas... No Regionals for us. 

Banana got partial upper braces AND a lower spacer. So much for her being the less expensive kid!

Happy 11th birthday, Banana and Squish!  It's a zombie minion, in case you couldn't tell...

Family birthday Dinner. Homemade Frozen themed cake. Inside, the cake is blue. 

Banana and my bubbie 

The Hubs' best friend and his wife came to stay (they live in Calgary) for about a week when his grandmother died. La and I went shopping

Went to the James Taylor concert with my pal. We entered to win upgraded seats...

We started here...

And ended up here...  FIFTH ROW!!!!!

Got invited to the Queen concert...

It was a fun night...

Then it was time for Banana and Squish to head off to sleep away camp! (August already!?)

The Hubs and I went to the drive-in...

The Rogers Cup...

I went to Niagara Falls with some girlfriends for a weekend (THAT'S a whole other story!)

But I missed Visitor's Day at camp...

We grew our own vegetables this year. That is a standard kitchen sink.  We had beets the size of baby heads!

We went on a solidarity with Israel march...

And made our first trip as a family to the Canadian National Exhibition (CNE, or Ex)

 

Sunday fun day on a Monday

I love long weekends.  Even the one before Banana and Squish start back at school.  

Long weekends equal sleeping in late, staying up late, movies, popcorn, campfires and s'mores. If we're lucky, the Drive-In in Sharon is playing good movies for the four of us and long weekends there mean TRIPLE features! (Nothing either good or appropriate for two 11 year olds was playing this weekend)

Saturday, the Hubs worked, and Banana was at a friend's, having slept over.  squish and I spent the day in our PJs, relaxing and getting nothing done (I got some housework done, but not much). We had our neighbours over with their 3 kids for dinner.  The kids ate and then we sent them off to play while the adults ate and chatted.

Sunday we slept in, then spent the day catching up on some very overdue chores. The Hubs wanted to barbecue, even though I was thawing veal scalloppini, so I made a run to the grocery store while he mowed the lawn.  After dinner was a movie with ice cream. 

Today we actually did sleep in again, had a quick breakfast and headed out to Burd's Family Fishing to go... Well, obviously... Fishing!  The Hubs bought Banana and Squish their own rods this summer and we rented rods at Burd's.  There are two ponds at Burd's. One is a bit less stocked and therefore patience is a must. It's for people who want to relax while fishing. The second pond is for people who want quick catches. We opted for the first pond. Within minutes of getting her line in the water, Squish hooked a fish!  (Burd's stocks rainbow trout). 

While the Hubs was helping her unhook her fish and get it into our basket, his bobber sank.  He'd caught something too!!

Because I'm a good wife, and I also enjoy fishing, (even though I find baiting the hook with worms gross, and I can't fathom getting the hook out of the fish) I dropped my line, which needed bait, grabbed his rod and reeled in his(my) first catch of the day.   And this was supposed to be the harder pond!

A little while later, and I caught a fish on my line!  We were up to three fish. 

Poor Banana had yet to catch anything other than reeds and pond grass.  Though she got a couple of nibbles and her bait did disappear a couple of times. We thought, since the other pond was supposed to be easier we'd relocate there and hope Banana could snag something there. 

It was then that the winds picked up and the rain started coming in. We were not deterred. It wasn't cold and it was only drizzling.  But the wind made casting challenging as we were casting into the wind. 

That being said, I managed to catch another fish. But it got away as soon as I got it close to shore.  A little later on, I caught yet another fish and Banana helped reel it in. 

Banana did manage to catch a fish using her Dad's line, and all in all, we went home with 5 fish totalling close to 6 pounds. Burd's gutted and de-headed them for us.

Guess what we had for dinner...?

Yesterday, I lost my children

I didn't know my sons, and they didn't live with me, but they were taken from me, regardless.  

You see, my sons were kidnapped on their way home from school and murdered by their kidnappers. My sons are your sons.  Eyal Yifrach, Gil-ad Shaar, Naftali Fraenkel.  For eighteen days we prayed for their safe return. For eighteen days we did mitzvot in their honour.  And on the eighteenth day, a full chai, we learned that our boys were gone. Murdered by the same animals who took them.

My sons are your sons, our sons were raised by different mothers, but they are our sons, their mothers are our sisters, their fathers are our brothers.  While they mourn the loss of their biological children, we mourn the loss of "our boys".

We are Klal Yisrael.  We are a worldwide community.  Our loss is great and it is felt across this great planet.  Every Jewish community in the world is mourning the loss of our boys.

From the day we heard the boys were missing, we prayed for their safe return.  We sent messages across the globe.  We attended prayer vigils in our communities, in our shuls, on the internet.  We performed mitzvot, we spoke in hushed tones and we vilified the kidnappers.  We praised the leaders who spoke out against the kidnappers. We wondered how other leaders could say nothing or, could vilify ISRAEL for this crime. We discussed retaliation, we expressed disgust at the obvious celebration of the "Palestinian" people and their photos holding up three fingers and claiming "three Gilad Shalits". I have started a movement to take that three finger salute back and use it in memoriam of our boys.

The pain of losing these boys so senselessly has rocked every Jewish community the whole world over.  Women were speaking in salons and supermarkets, asking if the news was true and sobbing in each other's arms. 

As Klal Yisrael, we mourn our sons.

Baruch Dayan haEmet.

Underlying Themes in "Frozen" That Seem To Be Ignored

My kids LOVE the movie "Frozen", Disney's latest. And if you're like me, you've probably watched it a trillion times with your little ones.

The story, on the surface, is sweet. It's a very Female Empowerment story and the music isn't that bad. (I know, I know... If you never hear "Let it Go" again, it'll be too soon). 

But what about the underlying issues that are never addressed? (WARNING:  if you haven't seen the movie - spoilers abound below)

Elsa accidentally strikes an exuberant Anna in the head with her magical snow powers prompting the King and Queen to seek help from the trolls (incidentally, the only area NOT affected by Elsa's later fit of eternal winter). Once the head Troll, or Troll King fixes Anna's injury, the King and Queen's response is to isolate Elsa, fire a bunch of hard working Palace staff, lock the gates and never explain the situation to Anna. So both girls get punished for an innocent accident.  One who doesn't even remember why and one who was the cause, but was actually trying to save her sister who was moving way too fast for Elsa to keep up with.  So the message? "being different is bad and you should be isolated from the normal people"

As Elsa grows, so does her power. In response, what does the King do? Tells her to wear gloves. So, if we hide the problem it will go away.  Conceal, don't feel. Elsa is not encouraged to learn control over her powers, but to conceal them.  Yeah. I don't see that being a problem later on. The message? "Being different is bad and you need to hide it"

As in almost all Disney movies, the King and Queen die, leaving Anna and Elsa parentless, with the skeleton staff left on board and a set of powers that have been left unchecked for the past - oh, let's say 10 years. 

Three years pass and Elsa has come of age, which means she can now take the Throne of Arendale (a Norwegian village, evidently), as it's rightful Queen. 

The day is emotional at best. And let's remember, Elsa has been given exactly Zero - Z-E-R-O - hours of training to control her abilities.  Anna has been so starved for attention that she literally falls for the first guy she meets who shows her any affection. There's a message for our girls - cute princes are just waiting for you to fall into their traps -- I mean LAPS. Yeah. Laps. 

So, of course, Anna and Hans want to become engaged. (Nah. There can't be any ulterior motives on one or both parties, now can there?!)

When Anna goes to her sister, Queen Elsa to receive her blessing, Elsa does what any responsible adult would do and refuses to offer her blessing since Anna literally JUST met this guy.  Anna gets mad, Elsa gets mad, and Elsa releases a spiked wall of ice, revealing her powers (betcha didn't see that coming!). So now, of course, all the townspeople and the visiting dignitaries are terrified of Queen Elsa.  Who does the only logical thing - isolates herself in an ice palace on the North Mountain. But not before setting off an eternal winter (Anna's words, not mine. Though how they know it's eternal after only a day or so, beats me). The message?  "Being different is bad AND scary. You need to be isolated from all the normal people."

Anna pursues her sister into the snow (hilarity ensues) and she meets Kristoff and his reindeer, Sven.  Even Kristoff is incredulous that Anna wanted to marry a guy she'd just met ("what's his last name?", "Of the Seven isles")

They find Elsa, who sets a giant snow monster on them - because when you have powers like Elsa's, you're evil, too. So you set mean creatures after your sister. 

The Duke of Weaseltown (pronounced WESS-el-ton) sends his henchmen on a search for Queen Elsa and Princess Anna. Of course, he wants her killed. 

Anna and Kristoff cavort with a friendly snowman named Olaf, who likes warm hugs and dreams of summer, when he'll be a.... Happy Snowman!

Anna and Elsa argue, Elsa strikes Anna with her powers again, but this time in the heart. Kristoff takes her to the trolls, who then try to marry they two of them together (because you're nothing if you're not married). They return to Arendale, defeated. Elsa gets captured and brought back to Arendale, where she causes a major snowstorm. Hans (Of The Seven Isles) attempts to kill Elsa, Anna steps in, freezes into a block of ice, breaks Hans's sword and Anna thaws because of her act of true love.

The message - not only boys can be heroes. And an act of true love can come from your sister just as readily. This message, I like. 

But what really bothers me still, is the isolation Anna and Elsa were put through. Why lock the gates?  Why isolate Anna?  Why not teach Elsa to control her powers?  Why make "different" synonymous with "bad"?

Your thoughts?

Why Honeymaid Graham Crackers are The Only Graham Crackers We will buy

http://youtu.be/2xeanX6xnRU

On March 10, 2014, HoneyMaid put out a commercial celebrating families. 

In this advert, we see a father feeding his baby a bottle. Pan out, Dad kisses baby on the forehead. But it's not the dad feeding the baby. It's his/her other father. Yep. A gay couple. 

Further families portrayed are a family where the parents are tattooed and playing drums (gasp!!  Their child might learn to enjoy music!!!). And an interracial couple and their children. They had the audacity to - are you ready for this? - HOLD HANDS IN PUBLIC!!!

What is society coming to?  All these different types of families?!  My goodness. 

All of the families portrayed in this ad had one thing in common. For as different as each family was/is from each other, they all love each other. 

And that is what HoneyMaid is trying to convey. That families are different. But they all love. 

The backlash they received was probably not unexpected, but what was even more impressive, was that the messages of hate and intolerance were outweighed 10:1 by messages of love and tolerance.

This is a business, a company, that I can happily buy products from, knowing that they value love and family, not what type of family.  Unlike an unnamed (as in I will not name them) pasta company that have made it clear that they support ONLY the traditional heterosexual, monoracial family. 

I am only one voice, but hopefully, more people will hear the messages and pass them along. 

Meet Grayson

Grayson is a 9-year-old boy who lives with his family, goes to school and does pretty much what other 9-year-old boys do. With one difference. 

Grayson LOVES My Little Pony. He loves them so much, that when he needed a new lunchbox and his mum took him to buy one, he chose a My Little Pony lunchbox. And his mum, being the incredible woman she is, said nothing about the gender bias of the show and bought him the lunchbox. 

This story should end here. But it doesn't. 

Because Grayson carried that lunchbox to school, kids at the school started to bully Grayson.  How did the school react?  They asked Grayson and his mum what they expected would happen if a boy brought a girls' lunchbox to school. They told Grayson to hide it in his schoolbag. Then they banned Grayson from bringing it to school at all. So, rather than deal with the bullies and put a stop to Grayson's torment, they laid blame on the victim. 

I told Squish about Grayson last night (Banana was upstairs sleeping - she wasn't feeling well) and told her he was being bullied because he had a My Little Pony lunch box and liked the show. Squish and Banana both like the show, too. Out of curiosity, I asked Squish, "what do you think of this?" Meaning both Grayson's love of My Little Pony and the bullying. 

Her response made me think I'm doing a good job with my girls. She said:

"That's dumb. People should be allowed to like what they like and bring whatever they want to school without being bullied. If he likes My Little Pony, who cares?  No one else should."  She meant that no one else should care if a boy likes a "girl's" show. 

I hugged her and she said she wanted to write Grayson a letter telling him he should be happy about who he is. And to let him know WE care and we are speaking out for him, and with him. 

We are behind you, Grayson. 

To the cashier at Metro

Thanks for the compliment that at least I "knew what was for dinner" when I was in last week picking up ingredients for that night's dinner.  We were talking about how I couldn't find a certain type of noodles and how your family (your siblings) are so picky. 

The thing is, I don't always know what's for dinner. Most of the time I get home from work and think "we have to be out the door for {insert program here} by 5:45. What the hell am I going to feed the kids?"

Funny thing is, I have a crock pot, a full fridge and freezer and pantry, tons of ingredients, a good imagination and access to a few really good apps for cooking. Yet most days, I can't figure out what to make. 

Often, we have leftovers available to eat. But my kids usually won't eat leftovers. They have to REALLY like what was for dinner the night (or two) before to deign to eat *gasp* reheated pre-cooked leftover food.  

I have a finite amount of time from Monday to Thursday to get food stuffed in their faces, homework done (or at least started), piano practiced, swimsuits, towels and karate uniforms located (still can't find Banana's karate belt. Let's hope she grades for her yellow and we won't have to look for her white one anymore), art supplies gathered, music binders collected and somewhere in there I have to manage to feed myself or get some housework done. Usually it's one or the other. 

I'm not complaining, and I didn't feel your  comment was insensitive. I just had to laugh a little because you thought I had it all put together, when in reality, I'd only picked the recipes a couple of hours earlier to complement the one dish I knew I was going to make. 

At least I can pull off the illusion of pre-planning. 

That said...

What am I going to make for dinner tonight before we run out the door for swim lessons?

My Niece

This is my niece. Don't you love that smile?  I love that smile. This is a happy kid, in general. 

But not always.  She can get very frustrated and angry. But we all can, can't we?  Sure. 

There was a time when this smile was somewhat hard to come by.  There was a time when I would come into her house and ask for a hug and get a very terse "NO!" and she would run away. (Ok, she was two at the time. I didn't think much of it).

Then there was the time, when she was about 18 months old, and we stayed over at my brother- and sister-in-law's for New Years and she woke us up crying.  Every. Single. Fucking. Hour. At 5, I was ready to get dressed and go home. Her parents were not impressed. With me. Who can blame them?  No one wants to hear that their family is frustrated by their child's nocturnal crying. Especially when they have been dealing with this pretty much her whole life. (Don't most kids sleep through the night by age One?  What is up,with this kid?)

Then there were the arguments at family gatherings in which my niece would cry and cry and cry and cry.  Pretty much a tantrum. At every meal.  In fact, the first picture I have of her, when she was a mere 2 days old, she's crying (ok, but she was only two days old at the time, but still...).  Not understanding what was going on, often we complained that we didn't want to listen to her tantrum during our meal.  I admit, we were not at all understanding of what my brother- and sister-in-law probably dealt with at home Every. Single. Day.

One thing they found out early on was that dairy seemed to be an issue. So, they eliminated dairy from my niece's diet. No milk, no cheese, no ice cream, no yogurt. As time has gone on, they've found what her limits seem to be and she is able to tolerate small amounts of dairy, usually if it's cooked. 

This also helped make radical changes to her behaviour. Mealtimes became far more pleasant. 

I will admit, I didn't always like my niece. But then, I didn't understand her. 

This past year, my sister-in-law pushed for more aggressive testing for my niece.  They went to several sleep studies where it was pretty much determined that she either doesn't secrete melatonin, the chemical responsible for our sleep-wake cycles, doesn't secrete enough or, if she is secreting melatonin, her body isn't using it effectively.  So, the doc prescribed melatonin for her to take before bedtime. I guess she's been on it nearly a year.  WHAT a difference!!! Once she started sleeping, her defiant behaviour changed and she stopped (for the most part) having tantrums. 

But something was still up. Socially, things were not good at school. Academically, she was struggling some in her French Immersion school.  She still seemed relatively happy, and my two years if unemployment allowed me more time to spend with her and her mom and sisters.  Honestly, the worst part of having time with my sister-in-law and nieces was that I wasn't working.

During the past two years, with all that extra time, I got to see my niece in a bit of a different light, and we started to forge a real relationship.

Then the results of the testing came back.

According to the testing done, my lovely, funny, sweet niece is on the Austism Spectrum and has ADHD.  

What does that mean to ME?  In terms of how I deal with my niece, absolutely nothing. She's my niece, I love her, and there is nothing anyone can do to change that. But it also means I question more.   I ask her mom what new ideas they've gotten from their support group. I ask her mom if a certain behaviour is part of her diagnosis, or just part of her.

But mostly, I ask for hugs.  And I get them.

2013 in Review

This is going to be a long post, I suspect.  I haven't really posted anything since school started for the girls, other than the post about the US Government shut-down.  So, sit back, relax.  Maybe get a snack and your favourite libation (alcoholic or otherwise) and enjoy.

2013 is over.  Crazy, huh?  I can't believe how fast this year went!!  So much happened, and yet, it was a relatively uneventful year.

It started out pretty innocuous.  We didn't go anywhere special for the first part of the year.  In March, we went to Florida for the break.  We had the apartment to ourselves, so it was nice.  Squish got to visit an American dentist and have a tooth (with an abscess underneath) extracted.  Thank Gd we had insurance.  We got it all reimbursed and the guy at the Target Pharmacy managed to find an insurance plan he could put her antibiotic through, thereby making the grand total for her entire script a whopping $6.

Squish at the Main Street Children's Dentist in Plantation, Flordia

In April we all learned about the Boston Marathon Bombing.  I still have no words to say, other than the fact that I am glad the perpetrators were caught.  The people who were severely injured and survived are a testament to the strength of the human spirit.  The people who ran an entire marathon and then ran to the nearest hospital to donate blood are heroes.  As are the 'common folk' who ran towards the smoke and fire and screaming and held people's arteries closed with their bare hands, worrying more about getting people to safety and getting them help than whether or not the person they were helping was "healthy".

May was Mother's Day where I received many wonderful gifts from my family.

June was June.  It was pretty quiet.  Banana had had her educational assessment, and we learned that she is super smart (we knew that already), but has a learning disability in that she has a poor working memory.  What that means is that she knows what she wants to say, and has the answer in her mind, but if you ask her to write it down, she loses all concept of punctuation, grammar and the like.  She scored between the 75th and 98th percentile in memory, vocabulary, reading comprehension and every language based test.  She scored low when she had to apply that knowledge.  So we waited for the psychological assessment to happen in  September to determine whether the rest of our instincts were going to pan out to anything.

After the big July flood, The Hubs and his twin brother went down
to the train station to bring snacks and water to the people being
shuttled from the stranded and flooded GO Train.

July the girls went to Ashreinu Day Camp, a Jewish Girl's day camp in the city.  They also turned 10!  We hit double digits and their Champagne birthday!!  We celebrated, of course, with champagne (ok, sparkly wine, but real wine).
We also had a huge flood (relatively speaking) in Toronto after a torrential rain storm.  One of the commuter trains - GO Transit train - got stuck on the tracks when the tracks started to flood.  Water came into the train and stranded all the passengers - about 1400 people.  My friend's husband was one of the passengers, and was going to be stranded at the Oriole station as that is where, when they started bringing people off the train by boat, buses were going to be taking the passengers.  The Hubs and his brother went to see if they could shuttle people stranded by the storm.  Since they couldn't get anyone from the train, they went to the station where the passengers were being shuttled and brought with them snacks (our entire snack bin full of the kids snacks - granola bars, rice krispie squares, etc) and fruit, as well as a case of bottled water, and handed it out to people getting off the train.  They were on the news!!  One of the passengers complained that there was nothing for them when they got off the train, and many were stuck on the train from about 4:00 until well after midnight by the time all the passengers were taken off the train.  This passenger did mention the "two young men" who were handing out bottles of water and snacks.  I'm very proud of the Hubs and his brother.

Getting our stuff onto the bus to camp!!

August was Banana and Squish's foray into the world of overnight camp.  They went for almost three weeks.  We had to pick them up early simply because my sister decided to get married!! LOL!!  Yup.

The Bride and Groom

 My baby sister decided it was time and she married an amazing guy.  My new brother-in-law, Avi, is sweet and funny.  I look forward to time spent with them always.
Just to add to her amazingness, my sister also received her Masters of Art from the University of Toronto in November.





September meant the beginning of another school year - Grade 5 for the twins this year!!  As always, they were in separate classes, so the chaos of finding their teachers was minimized only because we had only one grade to find.  Based on how chaotic it was on the first day, I can't imagine what people with kids in different grades felt like.  Let alone my friend with 4 kids in 4 different grades!!

At the end of September, I started a new job and while it's part-time, I love it.

Sometime between October and December (I really don't remember when) Banana had her psychological assessment and we were informed that she is ADHD-I  This means ADHD, Inattentive Type.  She's not hyper. She doesn't get up and move around the room, but she is easily distracted.  I kept up with her teachers to make sure she was getting on ok in class.

November was an early Chanukah and we celebrated with family.

December meant school break.  I chose not to take any time off during the holidays, so made arrangements to have the girls looked after during the days that I worked.  I did take one day off, and we went to Buffalo with my brother and sister in law and their kids.  It was a nice 5 day trip where we did some shopping and were successful in finding dresses for the girls to wear to a bat mitzvah we had in January.

And I think that pretty much sums up 2013.

We're a month into 2014, and I'll let that be another post.

Happy New Year!!!!